Frisco

I just wanted to share with the people I care about and those who loved him that Frisco is no longer with us. He passed away tonight in his Momma's arms, peaceful and serene. He's once more up and running, pushing open bathroom doors in heaven, embarrassing God while he's on the pot.

lol

That's my boy.

I'll miss him always.

...keep on swimming...keep on swimming...

so many things have occured over the last two years that I feel i'm a different person than the one who left richmond to pursue a new career path. not only has my education expanded and my career changed, i've changed.

being back in richmond, i've barely seen my friends. they all have lives of their own and are busy folks, but thats no excuse. i've been hiding from them, afraid somehow, to show them who i am. (though loving thoughts of them are always near to my heart)
i'm still much of the same person, but i've come to the realization that i don't fully share myself with those who care about me and whom i care for.

yes, much of this time i've still been living in my head, wasting energy on circular thought processes. wasting time and energy wallowing in thought, denying the action which could lead to the fruition of the thoughts and dreams i spend so much time agonizing over.

why do i deny myself so?

i don't like myself much. i've changed, yes. but not in ways that would necessarily make me better or worse. just different. i have a different perspective than i did.

i'm aware that part of this roller coaster of thought and emotion is due to my mental disorder. i'm bipolar II. emtional swings with a tendency to be depressed rather than manic. though i'm sure those close to me know this or have figured it out, i've never expressed it to them. this is a large part of the reason i keep myself closed off to my friends. i know they'd be there to support me, but i feel like a burden. too needy at times and ultimately a drain on their own mentality. perhaps i'm assuming too much, but its how i feel. basically, its another way of not allowing them to be aware of what i'm going through and even letting them get the chance to offer help.

this is why i see a therapist. lol. and yes, now that i'm back in richmond, i'm looking for a new one.
soon, i'll be back under the safe umbrella of professional counseling. lol.

so, its time for change, people.
and i have to try and embrace it.

hell of a week

so...haven't written in awhile, again. haven't had the best time the last couple of weeks.
but knowing that my friends and family always have me in their prayers helps.
School is going ok...always feel like i could do better with grades, but i'm passing and in all honesty thats all i really care about. start my new job next friday. i'm nervous, a little scared. but the people seem really nice and say they're excited to have me. so...i'm sure i'll be fine.
got to play with sheep and pigs the last couple of weeks. got some good pics, once i get them developed i'll make them available.

Yay-bia!

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the latest..and best...news from the western (virginia) front

This past monday I had a job interview. It went well.
So well in fact, that I got a call Thursday and was offered the job!
So...starting February 8th I start part time at Earlysville Animal Hospital in Earlysville, Virginia. I'll be working any Friday that I don't have class. Once I graduate, I'll immediately switch to full time.
I'm really excited, but really nervous. lol

So...if you're curious about where I'm gonna end up...check out their website.
http://www.earlysvilleanimalhospital.com/

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yes, today was the day. the National veterinary Technician Examination was held today in beautiful weyers cave, va. College was closed yesterday due to the copious amounts of snow we got (which was goregous to sit and watch all day long...we got at least 4 inches...huge soft flakes fell almost all day thursday)so i was able to get plenty of rest. Today started out well enough. I was up early (had to be at school by 7:30ish) my car was totally covered in snow so i went out early to start her up and clean her off. that went fine...i was on time...then i left for school.
did ok on the first part of the driveway. then came the first hill...always tough, even in good weather. i cut the wheel just a tad to get around the curve and just my luck the rear end slips just enough to get caught in the soft snow at the edge of the road. thought i could get it out...but, no such luck. i was stuck. so here i was 7:20 or so...no time to work on it...i had to get to school. luckily libby (my landlady) was on her way to work. her little cabriolet makes it through those roads without a problem (of course, she's been driving them for 25 years)
anyway...i left the car and libby took me to school. needless to say i was in a bit of a pissy mood.

SNOW!

after my alarm went off this morning...i was still lounging in bed...coughing of course, though i am feeling a little better...when libbie's voice floated up the stairs and told me that it was snowing and the college is closed. it was icy tuesday morning too, so i figured it was more of the same and rolled over and went back to sleep awhile. When i woke up a little while later i got up and finally glanced out the window....oh my goodness!....humongous flakes are falling and all i see is white. i went and looked out the back door and there had to be nearly 3 inches piled already and, even now, four hours later, its still coming down. its gorgeous.
ok...so this wasn't my best writing...lol..but...maybe i need a nap to let my brain work on something better...hahaha.

i'm sick

yuck!
i'm sick.
well..started in at the gym this week..went 3 days straight...started coughing a little. figured it was because i don't drink enough water combined with my body not being used to exercise as well as the exercise-induced asthma i can get. but yesterday...ugh...it hit hard. its not just a cough and wheeze...its sick...yuck.
mucus is an amazing substance.
been coughing so much i think Frisco is getting worried. he's laying here staring at me...as he usually does..but i'm sure he looks much more concerned than usual..if i keep coughing...i might forget to feed him.

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well school is back underway and interesting as ever. New topics this semester...Large Animal Medicine, Animal Diseases and Microbiology, Zoo,Wildlife and Laboratory Animal Medicine and Hospital Management. Have a line on a job too. As you may know i've got an interest in behavior and there's a referral practice in cville that specializes. my prof told me about it at the end of last semester and again today, told me that they are now actively hiring for a new technician. well, i made the call this afternoon and will be faxing over my resume tomorrow. talked to the practice manager this evening and she said the person leaving was heavily involved in behavior and that is a big plus for me...and them, since i've got a big interest...she said she'd be in contact soon and we'll set up an informal interview and tour, possibly working up to some part time work through this semester to get my foot in the door. she sounded really nice. this could be a great start for me..in practice and in finding out if behavior is really my thing (which i'm pretty sure it is) :D

new year...let's try this again

ok...so...it's bovious that Mariah sucks at this blog thing. to be honest, i had some rough patches through the year and didn't think my thoughts would prove very encouraging to my friends and family, so i didn't write anything down.
this year i'm going to focus on myself. my health is in jeopardy and i can't ignore that anymore. so, i'm going to use the "what did i eat today" tool to help track what i eat...if you have to write it down..it helps. i'm taking an exercise class at school, exercise for a grade..that should make me get off my ass. lol.
so...here's to 2008...let it be a true year of change.